Creating a blog has been a real struggle for me. I’ve always enjoyed writing. I’ve always wanted to make it a more important part of my life. I’ve always wanted to be read. I’ve been taking more and more courses to hone my skills. And if I’ve heard it once over the last few years, I’ve heard it a hundred times – “ya gotta have a blog!”
However, I’ve always had this kooky little glitch that makes me instantly want to resist doing what everyone else is doing, just because everyone else is doing it. Motive has always been very important to me. I’m not trying to be special, super cool or anti-social. I’m also not paralyzed by every little move in life nor am I immune to going with the flow. But often when I’m making decisions, if I take a sniff and something smells status quo, I take my foot off an internal pedal and apply the brakes. I then go through this process of research, reflection, suspicion, procrastination, meditation or whatever until I make my move to go either through, or around. The whole thing can be over before I know it, or last for hours to days to yes…years. It took awhile to create this blog.
After giving some ear to those who said, “you don’t need a blog” and “no one reads blogs”, then being asked to write some posts for another blog, and then hearing I should post my stories on my own blog, I started to think that yes, at some point, I guess I really do “gotta have a blog”. I still sat with that for about 10 months, thinking “well everyone’s got a blog” and I got very busy doing other things.
But true to the process, my motive has finally bubbled to the surface. It turns out I need a place to not only stay in writing practice, but one where I can launch the stories of the second half of my life. Turning 50 meant a lot of things for me. I need a place where I can breathe life into my healthy curiosities, whether anyone else reads about them or not. I need a clubhouse in which to hang out with others, up and away from the status quo entity that while not entirely bad, does give me the willies. Especially when I see how hard it works to make us think our life just can’t be fun, healthy, secure or successful unless we come down and play on it’s team exclusively. Which I’ve come to learn, is a lie.
So, yaaaay first post! It does feel good to be off and running. Looking forward to hanging out with you.
Feel free to share some ways you’ve gone against the flow in your environment with positive, satisfying results.